In need..

I want to get cast away to some place from where I could never return. This is the only wish I now have. It feels exciting to lead a life with no aspirations, hopes, emotions, dreams and souls around. The catch is to make sure that you never get to come back. Life is short they say. Enjoy everyday as it comes is what they suggest. All of it sounds nice. There comes a day when you give up and you see that it’s beyond your capabilities to push things towards the good/better. It hurts more when you realize after careful consideration that only a part of it was your fault. I am so tiered…I am lost….I am down…I have lost…..and I have lost myself too……