Saturday, January 30, 2010

I Love Blogs !

I watched “It’s Complicated” and it was OK. It doesn’t hold any repetitive value but the movie was right in its content. There were some moments in there holding promise and could have been bettered. But movies like that appear every year…don’t they? Meryl was superb.

Tomorrow has got loads for me. Firstly, Roger and Murray in Australia and then I have my favorite reality show “Roadies” and lastly, Manchester United will share the playground with Arsenal. So it is going to be more than seven hours of television tomorrow…..a rare one for me. And now you must already have known what it would be about, here…tomorrow..... :)

By the way, I came across an article from The Economist which talks of today’s connectivity and had some really cool data about Facebook. And here it goes:
Facebook, which celebrates its sixth birthday next month and is now the second most popular site on the internet after Google. The globe’s largest online social network boasts over 350m users—which, were it a nation, would make Facebook the world’s third most populous after China and India. That is not the only striking statistic associated with the business. Its users now post over 55m updates a day on the site and share more than 3.5 billion pieces of content with one another every week. As it has grown like Topsy, the site has also expanded way beyond its American roots: today some 70% of its audience is outside the United States.

That looks huge and it certainly shows how deep technology is rooted into our lives. But none of these social networking sites were good for me. I am in there and have a pretty good friends list and I do check the pages regularly. But the Gemini in me never allows me to be there for long. To cite a few cases, if you already know about the apps/games available on Facebook, I started playing Mafia Wars and then Car Racing and a few weeks back I was on with Farmville. All of them met the same fate….I gave up after a few days and that they all were amazing for the first thousand clicks. It makes me wonder about my blog. But the idea behind a blog is what keeps me going…..….thankfully it’s not just technology.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

A Question

I didn’t blog yesterday. I was feeling sad because the HR didn’t call me. And it was the same today. Finally, with trepidation and desperation I called him up and found that they have a huge list of candidates to cater to and they will be done with their internal processes by tomorrow end. So now, the new news is that they will be calling me on the next Monday….LOL. I don’t have any other options than to listen and believe what he says. So, that’s all for it as of now.

I have a question. Is it normal to feel insecure when your lady/guy is good friends with people from the opposite gender? I expect that the answers, if at all they come, be true and for real….and for the more enlightened ones, feel free to provide suggestions too…..
Personally, I will feel insecure. And though I may take friendship as normal, but anything that has intimacy or deep understanding will for sure hurt me……and yes you can say that I am “ ”…......u can take ur pick and fill it up……:)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Holiday matters

A lazy day for me…..woke up late and had a late breakfast and strong coffee…my preference on a holiday.
And to my surprise, the Australian open was still getting aired live. I cheered for Roddick and saw him loose to finally see a tamed Nadal sign out injured. I felt bad but I always believed Murray had class. On a different note, I feel that Roger stands a better chance now as Nadal always seems a threat. Looks like I will have a good time cheering and seeing Roger win this time…….and yes, tennis is one of the sport apart from soccer that I love to watch and follow it…… :)

My job search had kept me away from my movie passion for a few weeks and with OSCAR coming, it is time to gear up. I prefer having my own favorites at the event. And so I am done with “500 days of summer” and “Julie and Julia”. The former was OK while the latter was awesome. Additionally it had the buzzword “blogging” all through it which kept me waiting for more and passion it was what all through and that always is an inspiration for me. Watch it for sure if you haven’t….one of the best from the year gone by……

My day also had a musical side and Owl City rocked it. I wonder how I missed upon their “Ocean Eyes”….Fireflies is a great score and a personal favorite but I wasn’t aware of the album release. Nez..i now have it with me on my iPod…..and I feel happy.

That was my day……tomorrow I would be back to my anticipation game…..and since am already into it I am hoping the HR calls me….

Monday, January 25, 2010

TT day :)

Dear bloggers and all of those who wished me luck, today was a dumb day. I was expecting the HR on the wire but today, not even a friend called me…LOL

Tomorrow is a holiday here and to make myself a little comfortable and seem like an opportunist, I take it that they would do so on Wednesday. I am not scared to lose it. If not they, someone would, someday get me what I want. It would mean a bit more of slog and I am here to do that. No point in fearing it…..some things are supposed to be hard earned….so…I wait….will update you all. I owe you that one………:)

The main event of today was Table Tennis. Yes, I love the game and I am learning it for the last two years. It is all about physics and concentration. It surprises me that back at engineering college I used to see fellows playing and always felt it was lame. And then, when I started my IT career, a senior colleague asked me if I knew the game as we were having coffee together overlooking people play. And he said “If you wanna stay in here and survive, learn that game…..it is as important as work”….and believe me, he was damn right. It is by a huge margin the only game you can play while at work, every organization has it, it is a great tool for networking too, it increases your focus and is all about adrenaline and guile. It certainly adds some action to a developer life and there are guys like me who look forward to it when they start a day. So, back to point, I played for six hours today. I don’t want to work and I guess my lead also feels the same now. I kept expecting the call and had a rough patch with my love yesterday too. Now these would justify my day today...and here it goes...three hours of TT during lunch and three in the late evenings….one hour for my lunch and one for my necessary coffee and smoking breaks...…ooppss I forgot…..add one hour for my mails and online habits…...seems I scored nine hours. Hmmm……nez…thats it about today......to Indians a very happy republic day ahead and to others, happy end-of-Monday… :)

Saturday, January 23, 2010

The story behind Monday

I may grab the hike I was looking for. I cleared the rounds and quoted according to my expectations. HR said that they would confirm the pay on Monday and that’s what matters to me because I already have two offers with me. So dear awesome bloggers, all of you who wished me luck yesterday, a big THANKS to you all.........i am waiting for the Monday call…….so for the last time, wish me some more luck………. :P (Wishing me luck isn’t easy…….i am always short of it….)

That ate up my whole day. I finally reached home in the evening, starving and coping with a headache. But I kind of made up for the calories I lost during those hours of stress…..had Pizza and Salad for my dinner. :) (Calories deserve respect and a careful execution)

Anticipation is now killing me…gosh…I am fed up with myself……first the expectation of an interview call….second, the tension and predictions and fear about what to read and what I would be asked and how things would go….third, the day when you sit like a puppet at the hands of luck and wish that even a second of judgment doesn’t go wrong for you……..fourth, when you clear it, wish and pray for getting what you expect……..fifth and this one is the biggest one: wait for it to happen……..duh !!! Sucks all the way……………………

Friday, January 22, 2010

Three things....

Three things about today….

Firstly, someone form my organization is sick and has caught some rare disease and the operation would need a huge amount of money. We have a common forum where in people send mails to interact and share information and there was a discussion on regarding this for raising a fund to help him out and the same was communicated a few days ago as an organizational announcement too. There were so many discussions going on regarding the amount that everyone should contribute and what else can be done to better the aid. After seeing them I was confused as to what I should do. The dilemma I was in was not about the amount but the question if at all I should contribute. The thing which bothers me is that at signal cross and at stations and on foot paths, time and again, I have denied a few coins to the needy and now I am about to donate big. Who deserves…? May be both and if that remains of it all….ain’t I inhuman..? If I am…..why this fuss and donation…? But shouldn’t it start somewhere…? And even if it does start here……shall I be able to change myself at those cross roads and stations…? Or is it that we need a corporate platform to donate and help…..? Or sickness has to be a cause…..and humanity shouldn’t be the cause…? Whatever……..i can feel the shame……

Secondly, I have interview tomorrow. I am sad and happy. I will tell you the reason for being happy first as it is the smallest one. I am happy because I may crack it and there is nothing more than that little “may” in this. I am sad as I have to read and there is so much to go through and there is so much that I didn’t even read and I have played TT today a lot and I am tiered and I just wanted to enjoy my Friday night and I really don’t know how things would proceed tomorrow and what all I would have to face and blah blah blah……..wish me luck….……


Thirdly, my love is feeling sick and her exams are just a few days away……so, wish me more luck guys.....i am of no use if anything is wrong about her.... :(

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Any Suggestions...?

I am dead bored and I am at work. The zeal to work isn’t there after I have resigned which I feel is normal. It is one month and I have one month more to go. The recreation room at my office is blocked due to local tensions going on regarding the formation of the new state and BPO guys are having their sleep there. I don’t have many friends here at work and the rest are busy with their plate. I read for two hours. And I am all done. I am tiered of refreshing the News pages and looking out for posts. Even the blogs I follow doesn’t have any new content. Seems everyone is busy...........any suggestions..............?

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Failures : An epic Story

To fail was important. To hit a wall might have felt bad and hurt but eventually that was what bore the fruit. If I recall today, my recent past, I can see a fact which I feel, I have learned for myself. I was in deep mess which made me (an all time class bunker who never got to score more than 20% on the attendance register while at engineering) go to office on the weekends and read for hours all alone. I can’t deny that I didn’t get the credit for that. Life got me a better job, probably the best project and team at that organization, and recognition of being skilled at the technology on hand. And then there was another kill. I was moved to different project on a different technology and few weeks down I found myself again in a deep mess unable to work with people boasting of five years of work experience and still learning HTML and CSS formats, people who believe that promotion and achievement is a war and all about politics and seniority, people who thought that they have all the power in the world just because they have been sitting there long. I tried with what I cannot say as my best and got two offers. I resigned......

But today, hardly a month more to go before I join my new arena, I felt as though I have hit on a wall again. I need better and i shouldn't stop. My need says to me that I deserve better. My deservedness insists that I should try more. I am told that I am asking for more. I am informed that I am suffering from more-syndrome and walking to glory never feeling happy with what I have. I am warned that I may end up having nothing at all. But what if i give up? What if i listen to all of them? I don't see things with time......i don't see how things will be taken care of....things that have been thrust upon me by something not of my choice......things that i have owned up genetically......things that expect a better time and claim to have a dream about them.....things that are waiting on me to come and get it done.......
Hmmm.....it ain't over.....it still remains a failure....

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Sad and Happy

It is sad and it is not……..and it goes as below…..

My love wanted to do her MBA summer internships in finance in sync with her choice. And due to her college placement cell super brains, she now has to do it in Marketing. The time given to decide to sign up for the program was a day and one was needed to procure the offer letter if at all one chooses to do it somewhere else or else sign it. We were counting on a few contacts which we had as options but getting corporate things done in a day is herculean. I can understand that money matters and colleges and universities are tools of earning big and recruitment and trainings are the season to go for the kill. Sadly, a candidate would always find it difficult as it is about his/her career. She is sad and so am I.

But the training location is my city and the duration is three and a half month and it encapsulates two biggies like the Valentine’s Day and her birth day. I am happy that togetherness is near. By the mid of next month, she will be here. It is yet to sink down into me. I am still not able to have it all. Let me tell you, it is a dream sorts and none the less…..distance relationships suck where in phone ringtones/vibrations are the beats your heart play, words are all you have got, distance is what remains from the start to the end, missing someone becomes habitual and common, being alone is no more a behavior but a nature, and many more………..and when it ends even for a day, you see where you were, what you have and what all you need from life to be alive.

Monday, January 18, 2010

No More Mondays

There was nothing great about today. It was a dull routine start of the week and minus the work load for me (as I have already resigned). I gave my first presentation today at work but the way it went, it seems i didn't give it at all. There were more morons than I had thought. It has been thirty days today since I resigned and till date, every day when I leave from my work place, I thank to GOD that I have resigned. They aren’t just interested in anything that has the promise of learning something new. If you push in a piece of code out of thin air to make them understand, it comes up onto their ego and you get blamed for being a show-off....how lame is that? So, I just spoke through my slides with as much detail I could. Claps always are normal I guess after a presentation. That was all about my work place today.

I came back and watched HIMYM (How I met Your Mother). I have finally reached Season 5….bad news for me. A few more episodes and I would be done and will have to wait with other fans for the next one to get aired. I am saving them as much as i can and presently am going an episode a day...thats the most i can do being a big fan. But if you haven’t watched it ever, just give an episode from season 1 a try…..my friend did and he watched all the 24 episodes yesterday……and to add on…his ringtone now matches the starting rhythm. Well, that was it…dear Monday……i am right when i say that I am no more scared of you on a Sunday……:)

Solve Me

Sometimes I think that I am on the correct way. I have a job and I got a better job which would pay me OK and the love of my life is with me and time will take care of us for the better and eventually everything would turn out fine.

Sometimes I think that I should strive for more and never stop this urge for going up the ladder and my efforts should be more coherent and focused to get me some better bucks and that the more I struggle the better I would reap and that I should start thinking seriously about my entrepreneurship worm inside or the ISB dream.

I am confused. Maybe it is just the empty brain doing the thing or may be that I should learn to stop and enjoy. Or maybe that nothing can ever satisfy me or make me happy. May be I always want more and more but who doesn’t? Help me solve me if anyone can…

Saturday, January 16, 2010

The gift she asked for...

My love one day asked me as to what would be my wedding gift to her. As I always do (I am bad with choosing gifts), I told her “Anything you ask for”. And she asked for a showpiece in our house which would say “I am the boss of this house and I have the permission of my wife to say so...”

I am presently missing her a lot. She is sick and down with cold and she has to read for an internship interview tomorrow and these are times when I want to be there and I can’t and I feel so helpless. Wish I could have been there…….and I am waiting for that day to come. Life is defined by those whom you love and what you share with them. For more than six years I am trying and praying for the day to come when I would be with her, sharing myself. So, all of you out there, who are together today, please do not forget what you share and have and how miserable life can turn into if it’s not there. Let love rule and rock……

Get me some more....

Money is driving me crazy. I have got two job offers and I have a little more than a month before I join one of them. And before that happens I need an offer which gets me good bucks. The recruiters out there are giving me the same shit whenever they call me…”I hope you know how the market is now”…..but I can see so many around me getting a good pay across all verticals irrespective of what they know and are capable of. My belief in destiny and luck is getting stronger day by day. Seems to me like the universe follows a pre-decided thought out plan and nothing that seems chaotic here is really chaotic. There is a harmony in the execution of events and time is just a tool to fool. You end up where you are supposed to and not where you deserve to.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Yeppie...A Holiday




Today was a holiday for me. The day is called as “Makar Sankranti” in India. Now before anyone of you wonder what it is about, here goes a brief description of it:

Makar Sankranti is one of the most auspicious occasions for the Hindus, and is celebrated in almost all parts of the country in myriad cultural forms, with great devotion, fervor & gaiety. It is a harvest festival. Makar Sankranti is perhaps the only Indian festival whose date always falls on the same day every year i.e. the 14th of January. Some celebrate it as Lohri and some as Bhogali Bihu and some as Pongal.

Pheww…I never knew all that and I am living in this country for the last 27 years and have been guilty of enjoying the holiday every year. Google rocks !!! This is something about me. I am not culturally inclined and it never occurred to me to understand and have two lines about these occasions and festivities. But I see people around who know a lot and who know something and a bit. I stand unique and eager to share the stage.

I saw “The Tournament” yesterday and I didn’t find it a 6.1 deserving as per IMDB. The impact wasn’t there and it could have been a lot better. It reminds me of “Mortal Combat” which I liked a lot. I used to play the game day and night and we had been able to find several hidden key combinations. “Quanchi” was my key. Nez…presently “Second Life 2” is keeping me busy and I salute the maker for the way they have developed it. Games and movies…how can someone stay away from them…they deserve the addiction…

Note: I have seen bloggers do innovative posts marking their 100th one and I am finding it difficult to think of one for my own. I am bad at innovative ideas.So if any of you reading this has some…..please do share…..I would be thankful.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Enter-preneurship

Hey all…today is one of those days when I am lost. There are things which I want to do apart from being a programmer/developer. And one of them is entrepreneurship. Few months back I was totally into setting up something. I booked my domain, got the things searched and ways found, discussed with many friends and also did some extra steps as to how to recruit people in and was done designing and naming my application. Funds held me back. I gave up.

But as days pass there is this thought which keeps on coming back. It is a recurring process and it holds questions within it that is hard for me to answer. What about doing things which I wanted to, what about creating something, what about catering to the needs, what about creating some employment while putting some extra block into the system, what with my education, what about the fear to fail…I really don’t know. Presently, I think, since I have got a job and spending my notice period at my previous organization and have a bit of time, these are coming and paying me a visit. Presently, the right thing for me is to hold myself tightly and let these be there in my mind and check myself on them. If they really stay there for a good amount of time and when I can really answer myself saying that I really want to do it, I will do it. I don’t know how and when but I feel, things work out your way when you badly want them. By the way did any of you read “Awakening the Entrepreneur Within” by Michael E. Gerber? It is an awesome inspirational book for people interested in the field. Nez…for me it is wide awake..but that is presently all about it….LOL

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Weekend Updates

My friend, who had been here for the last two days, got his hair transplanted last month and he paid a big amount for that. Some say that he is insane to have done such thing and he says, he feels good and needed it. Whatever be the case, I was obliged to be the one to go with him and buy his hair Shampoo and hair Brush for the first time in five years. We even got it clicked. I liked his passion. He always has it and I love that. He does what he wants to and he does it with style. KFC followed at night and we grabbed six chicken pieces, two large French fries, two Krushers, four Coles law and two Zinger Burgers to our credit….a Big List right? It is always the case when it is just the two of us.

My interview on Saturday (thanks for the wishes Farah) went OK. I survived the written technical screening test and successfully gave my fourty-five minutes interview. But don’t ask me how it was. I answered most but I am still unable to figure out why they asked what they asked. There was no direct question, nothing on the skill set and it was all here and there. It was more on the www awareness you should be having as a web developer. Nez….i think tomorrow I would know if it is a Yes/No….

I watched Sherlock Holmes today. I found it good and even my friend, who doesn’t have a taste for English flicks, completed it without sleeping which always happens with him at such shows. Needless to say, nothing can beat the original texts. Holmes as a character is so interesting. His nicotine dosages and his precision of methods and his chemistry knowledge and an eye for details, encourages me a lot. I wish I could be as good as him in any one aspect of my life.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Fri-Bunk




Friday nights are bad and sad for job seekers. Majority of the walkins happen during the weekends. And so, going to the point, Tomorrow I have an interview. I have two offers with me and I got what I initially was looking out for: my technological preference for work and a promotion. I have more than a month’s time with me before I join and I thought it would be logical to keep searching and attending interviews in case I get a better remuneration too. But, I haven’t read anything since I cleared the last two. To be a bit guilt free, I have decided to bunk the night today reading and refreshing what I already know so that at the least I can answer what I already knew. So, wish me luck guys. I am in need of that as I am already feeling sleepy and it’s just one in the morning and I am yet to have my starch loaded dinner…

A few friends are coming to the city. I am not excited at all to see them and the reasons are many. It hurts me when people get insensitive and selfish, even though they are the good ones whom you know since long. It is hard for me to adjust on some grounds. Instead, the new movie “Sherlock Holmes” waits this Sunday for me and is the only thing I am looking forward to…

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Third One

I became an avid novel reader when I joined engineering college. Reading novels were fun and time used to fly by without notice and I enjoyed the new world. Bunking classes and reading novels felt genetic then. I was all bad and spoilt and undisciplined except being a good reader if at all that can score. I started with Sheldon and finished almost all the titles available for Forsyth, Puzo, Robbins, James and Brown. Sherlock Holmes, Christie and Lord of the Rings happened too. But there were many like Cook and Grisham whom I didn’t like and by the third year I was done. I thought that my college library was exhausted or my horizon was limited. Harry Potter was just a children character and people used to talk about the special effects. I never thought of giving it a read until one day I saw her (who else can it be) reading it. I mocked about the childish content and ended up carrying the first one home. It was an experiment and it seemed just like any other book. She insisted and I took up the second one. Third one was my decision and dear bloggers, I got hooked. I really don’t know what happened since then. It was hard to keep myself from that world. The mystery took over me. The imagination was so precise and detailed and interestingly spawned that I was lost. Before the seventh one released, I read the earlier six ones at least four to five times just to make sure that I wouldn’t be missing anything when it comes to the final one. I remember shipping her, the last one the day it was released and I still remember how proud I felt right then. And whenever I would feel low at office and would like to distract myself and cheat from work, it was always dear potter. I rank Rowling as the best writer I have ever read and I salute her imagination, eye for details and storytelling skills and I thank you my love for making me read such lovely pages.

I am big movie buff. IMDB is my favorite and I love torrents and big screens alike. Tom Hanks happened first and since then there has been no way out. I love movies and I love Bollywood and Hollywood alike. I have a huge list of favorites and it is beyond my mental capacity to recollect which all I liked till date. I never used to watch television series. I remember seeing Friends once but I didn’t like it much. When you are in a relationship, you sometimes do things you have been asked to do which you would never do if you would have been single and it was for the second time that I ended up liking it a lot. How I Met Your Mother is what I am referring to. Needless to say what happened next, I am currently in the fourth season and I am sad they are airing the fifth one. Wish I had more seasons to watch and catch up. It has now replaced my laptop movie screenings and serves best in purpose, at the end of the day. I love Tedd, Barney always rocks, Lily and Marshall are cute and Robin is dumb yet funny. I am in love with them and I thank you my love for making me aware of such a lovely world.



So Dear Love, I am waiting for the third one to happen……….

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Hanky-Day

The day started as bad as it could. I had paperwork to be done and scanned and sent for my project with my one of the organizations I would be joining and it was pending since December third week. I decided today to be day. Just when I was about to be done having scanned and printed the documents, the power was cut. The shop doesn’t have a single UPS backup. That’s from a city in India where IT flourishes and the most competitive exam of the country goes online. Leaving the work half done, I rushed to my office. I was happy with myself for having come up with an innovative excuse for being late at office: “My debit card got stuck at the ATM and I had to rush to the main Branch.” That’s India guys. Tell them the truth that you had some personal work or you woke up late because you found it hard to sleep last night and you deserve screams. For this one, I got sympathy, curiosity and understanding. In short, all that I needed.

We had a Team meeting today. I love them. Just watch people come up with issues and see the manager handle them with occasional help from the team leads. They could never understand that as long as the work is getting done, all managers and leads are happily eager to listen and help with no soul or mind. I stopped complaining and highlighting and suggesting, long back and I wish they do the same. They deserve nothing but silence. May be when someday I would get there, I will try things and speak and suggest. Hope by the time I reach there, I stay the same.

That’s what I call a mechanical day if I take out something which also happened. My love, when she was here a few days back for the New Year was searching for her lost hanky. She thought she has misplaced it somewhere. She was right. But it happened to be good for me. While starting for work and the document work in the morning I thought of carrying a poly bag with me and I took out the one which we used while shopping. The small cute hanky was right there. I was overjoyed. I could smell her love and warmth in that tiny piece. It was a world to me and that was the best thing about today.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

The List Toppers of Life

One of the best things about winter is the morning sun. Getting out of the cozy bed in the chill of the morning and going into the sunlight while looking over a misty cold haze is a joy which is hard for me to categorize. It is one of those which comes only with a life and I think, is amongst the small joys affordable even to a creature like me. And when it is all covered in fog and visibility is low, wait for the morning rays to pierce it and see it lift gradually. It is so refreshing. The cold air into my lungs feels like a blessing. Wish I could capture the whole phenomenon somehow……

One of my friends started his blog today. I had been telling him to do it since a long time and finally today was the day and his first post speaks about his visit to the Himalayas. The pics were so nice. I wanted to take some myself and a trek to the Himalayas has been long pending on my list. Those mountains which I have always preferred over the seas are irresistible. Last year I had collected information of such a trek which the Government of India organizes monthly but things didn’t work out. Planning and co-coordinating between friends when all of you work in IT is in itself an uphill task. And I still remember comments from some which goes like I have gone mad and I behaved a lunatic when I tried my options for such a trek. I pity them and wish that somehow in this birth of theirs they get to know what it is like up there in the Himalayas.

There is so much to do with a life. Hardest part is when you have to prioritize. And when it happens, somehow the second and the third ones on the list forever remains the way they are. Things move up from the bottom and become the winner. Some things just stay where they were on the list. Life changers come from deep down and turn things forever. That’s what destiny’s game is all about and that’s where plans almost always fail.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Biggest procrastinator...and the award goes to...

I am missing that touch. I am missing those eyes. I am missing that someone. Why do I have to feel these, is what I ask. A better way could have been possible. I am spending my life amidst people whom I don’t want or feel for. Presently, as I sit here writing this, my door is closed to get myself a space where I can be myself. What if I don’t want or like them? What if I am not fine being alone? What is so big a deal for you if all I ask for is that one person? What if i don't wanna play GOD and be humane and cry and scream and die for what i need and want? I am taking the air inside and out and I can’t help it. I am walking this road and I can’t help it too. You made me a way and I am having it the same way since years. I am walking the walk you want me to. You know what I need and still, you don’t and even if you do, what about it? If not today, then I presume that someday would hold an answer. But what about these moments and days and nights and mornings and evenings which are flying by? If separation was my destiny, I didn’t choose love. It was you. I hope you have heard that "We don't choose love....Love chooses us". People who know me say that I am the biggest procrastinator…….....i say "LOL". We both know who it is. :-)

Sunday, January 3, 2010

For the first time..

The year started on a good note for me. Never did it happen before that I would be happy on a New Year eve. An unusual sadness always used to grip me. This time, it was different. I went to the disc for the first time and that too with my love. Secondly, I danced for the first time and that too with her. Thirdly, we were together for the first three days of the year and that too for the first time. We have spent many moments together but it was for the first time that we were celebrating the New Year together in the physical world. I am happy and I have nothing to complain. This is what I had wanted and it happened the exact way. And from tomorrow, starts my usual routine. I pity Mondays. They always take the hit and get the bad name.

One funny thing which I came to know just a few days back is about the school admissions for the ones aged five. Their fathers are supposed to go through a written test and many a working mothers are pretending to be home-makers and preparing for a face-to-face interview. Their performance is what decides the thirty lucky ones who would get admission against a total of over three thousand applications. Isn’t that funny and weird? Think a case where that father is your manager or that wannabe-homemaker is your reporting lead and they talk about interviews and written tests. I found it hard to believe. Everything is now about competition. I wonder if they would ask to get certified before we are legally allowed to go for a child. Though, this one I guess would be a savior…LOL.

Cheers guys….my year starts tomorrow….lets buckle up and get going…..